Saturday, April 27, 2024

story for Sunday

Do
You
Go
Every
Sunday

Sit
In
Rows
Swear
To obey

Do
You 
Still
Look
For answers

In
The
Tales 
Of our 
Ancestors

Do you remember the story of Noah and the ark?
Did you ever think how much he suffered for his part?
Was the story of the two by two
Taught to children,  told so cute
Have you ever looked deep into the lines 

Sing the songs
They tell you to
Say the words
Like you're supposed to do
Rituals have a way of giving
What we need for believing

Do
You
Still
Say grace
For every meal

Do
You
Still
Erase
The sins you reveal

Do
You
Still
Feel like
There's something real

Watching you

Is it watching you?
What if it's watching you?
What if it's not?

Remember the story of Job
When God turned him into a joke
He took everything just to show
That the poor bastard still worshiped him

Did that teach you what you need to know?
What they think of here below 
Jealous Gods seem to have to show
How much we will love them even though

Did
You
Pass the plate
Of gold 

Did 
You
Give what
You were told

Is 
It
Fear that
Makes you hold

On to all of this?

Saved and sacred
Scared and naked
Saved and sacred 
Scared and naked

Just trying to get home
Just trying to feel home
Just trying to find home
Just trying to go home

Did
You
Do what you
Were told

wither thou goest

I saw my mother get dragged inside
The television took her mind
Her drug of choice was CNN 
She believed every word they said

Wither thou goest
Should I go too 
Even if there's nothing left of you
Wither thou goest
Wither thou goest

I watched my father in law
Get the same
When he tucked in his brain
To the fox News,  what can you do?

Wither thou goest 
Should I go too
Even if there's nothing
Left of you
Wither thou goest
Wither thou goest

I watched my sister
Blowing lines
Till she couldn't
Stay alive

Wither thou goest
Should I go too 
Even if there's nothing
Left of you
Wither thou goest
Wither thou goest

I watched my grandma
Pay her tithes
She prayed for what she
Thought was right
It didn't stop her
From losing her mind
All questions are answered
In due time

Wherever thou goest
Should I go to
Even if there's nothing
Left of you
Wherever thou goest
Wherever thou goest


safe

Hey
Did you get enough to eat?
Hey
Did you get a treat?
Hey 
Did you have a pretty normal day?
Well that's ok

Hey
Did your city just get bombed?
Hey
Did you pay for someone's wrongs?
Hey
Are you safe at home tonight?
Well that's alright

When you lay your head down safe
Do you remember to take time to pray
For everyone that's not ok
For all those who can't go home?

When you snuggle in your bed
Do you remember those who've fled 
From what they've always known?
That can never go home?

Did they tell you it's ok
Too do things their way
Did they tell you that you're safe
As long as you play the game

Jesus christ 
Are you coming or what
Is this your fight
Or is it all or fault
Jesus christ
When will you make your debut
We've prayed,  we've titled
Are you gonna come through

Is it ok if she just cries 
She doesn't understand all the whys 
She's just hanging on to her life
With no answers or reason

I guess as long as your wifi works
Your work and hobbies will come first
It's not like they're killing neighbor kids
Keep on scrolling shorty video

What can I do,  little one
What can I do,  orphaned son 
What can I do to give you the peace that you should have

What can I do,  my sister
What can I do,  old mister
What can I do to return the life that you lived 


are you kidding me

Baby, there's someone knocking
At the door
Could you come and answer it
Once more 

The news isn't good,  he tells us
48 hours till they just
Come and take over our home
There's no one left on the phone

We thought the handsome boy in the courtroom
Was actually doing his best to tell us the truth
Looks like he was doing the work of the devil
And we were left to face the gavel

Where can we go
What do we do
This can't be happening
This can't be true

Are you kidding me
Is this a bad dream
Are you kidding me
This is to much for me



Saturday, April 20, 2024

dougie hates this one

Is it cool if I sit here
And listen to you play your songs?
Is it cool if I sit in
Is it cool if I jam along
Is it cool if I don't hold
Back anything at all
Is it cool if I want to be
A part of it all

Is it cool if we work on
Something that we both create
Is it cool if we can
Comfortably collaborate
Is it cool that you're not me
And I'm not you
It'd be so cool if we just played
Without thinking everything through

I'm not strong enough to fight
I'm not trying to be right
Will you ever see my time
As the biggest gift of mine

What's so wrong with that
What's your problem now
Is my work just trash 
Did you take some vow

Is there something that I've done
Will I ever have some fun
I guess it's always been your show
I guess it's time for me to go

Is it cool if I 
try a different line
Is it cool if I
Just chill and harmonize
Is it cool if I
Work these keys of mine
Is it cool if I
Work the bass line

Is it cool if we work
On something that is ours
Is it cool if we
Work together on these bars
Is it cool to be
Together on the mic
Is it cool if we
Share the spotlight

What's so wrong with that
What's your problem now
Is my work just trash
Did you take some vow

I dint want to fight
It's just another song
Can't we both be right
Can't we both be wrong

Tuesday, April 2, 2024

Phone calls to my sister

Jesus.

I wish I could talk to you.  Almost 18 years later.  I still wish I could call you everyday. 

Our family is not ok.  Your kid is running rampant.  Emily has everyone backed into a corner.

There was never a time since you left that we didn't need you.

 I'm not cut out to be the oldest.  I can't fill your shoes.

Mom and dad are getting old, they're both sick.  Adam is doing the best he can, after a shit load of rough times.  I'm pretty sure I'm always gonna be a fuck up.

Oh please come back.  I can't tell you how horribly I wish you could just come back.  I miss you, more than you could ever imagine. 

I don't think we are doing ok without you.  We've tried for almost 18 years.   We're not ok.

Please just take us to a different time line where you are still here.  Please come back.  

I'm not what they need.

I'm never going to be you.

Wednesday, February 14, 2024

please forgive me

I know who I was,  or at least what I tried to be. 

My body couldn't keep the promises my ego issued.

It's time to pay the piper. 

I deserve the worst. 

Please don't hurt me.