So many things, all at once.
I shut down. I hide. I doom scroll and sleep and drink.
I need to believe in myself/my work again.
So many good people are supporting my work.
Telling me, "get back up!".
They'd do anything for me.
I wish I would.
I'm scared.
So many things have hurt. So many lives I've built and burned.
Fuck.
It's hard to get back up again. I'm so tired.
Please help me.
What am I supposed to do?
What work is for me?
Help me find my place again. Help me be useful again. Help me do good again.
I'm so tired.
Please pick me up, dust me off, and put me in the game again.
Struggling is real.