dougie hates this one

Is it cool if I sit here

And listen to you play your songs?

Is it cool if I sit in

Is it cool if I jam along

Is it cool if I don't hold

Back anything at all

Is it cool if I want to be

A part of it all

Is it cool if we work on

Something that we both create

Is it cool if we can

Comfortably collaborate

Is it cool that you're not me

And I'm not you

It'd be so cool if we just played

Without thinking everything through

I'm not strong enough to fight

I'm not trying to be right

Will you ever see my time

As the biggest gift of mine

What's so wrong with that

What's your problem now

Is my work just trash 

Did you take some vow

Is there something that I've done

Will I ever have some fun

I guess it's always been your show

I guess it's time for me to go

Is it cool if I 

try a different line

Is it cool if I

Just chill and harmonize

Is it cool if I

Work these keys of mine

Is it cool if I

Work the bass line

Is it cool if we work

On something that is ours

Is it cool if we

Work together on these bars

Is it cool to be

Together on the mic

Is it cool if we

Share the spotlight

What's so wrong with that

What's your problem now

Is my work just trash

Did you take some vow

I dint want to fight

It's just another song

Can't we both be right

Can't we both be wrong

Phone calls to my sister

Jesus.

I wish I could talk to you.  Almost 18 years later.  I still wish I could call you everyday. 

Our family is not ok.  Your kid is running rampant.  Emily has everyone backed into a corner.

There was never a time since you left that we didn't need you.

 I'm not cut out to be the oldest.  I can't fill your shoes.

Mom and dad are getting old, they're both sick.  Adam is doing the best he can, after a shit load of rough times.  I'm pretty sure I'm always gonna be a fuck up.

Oh please come back.  I can't tell you how horribly I wish you could just come back.  I miss you, more than you could ever imagine. 

I don't think we are doing ok without you.  We've tried for almost 18 years.   We're not ok.

Please just take us to a different time line where you are still here.  Please come back.  

I'm not what they need.

I'm never going to be you.

please forgive me

I know who I was,  or at least what I tried to be. 

My body couldn't keep the promises my ego issued.

It's time to pay the piper. 

I deserve the worst. 

Please don't hurt me. 

get off my lawn

Things are changing so quickly. 

Who ever thought someone would think steely dan was a person that used they pronouns?

Fuck

Who ever thought they needed seek out that level of validation for their dating preferences?

I just don't care.   It doesn't matter. 

If people want to stand up and scream and fight over whatever,  that's their thing. 

Israel bombed a children's hospital.   We still have camps in the US full of migrant children that are illegally detained. 

People are losing their homes, came afford to feed themselves. 

Steely Dan's pronouns seem like a great distraction. 

Fuck it. 

surprise

Everyone goes through life alone. 

Though we may desperately seek and believe we have found sometime who shares our experiences as we do...

That's not possible. 

I've spent so many years.   I believed in a shared perception and experience of life with a partner. 

I

Was

Wrong

I was wrong. 

nobody's coming

I've waited and wished

Begged and thrown fits

Sent psychic beams 

Still Noone comes for me

I've charmed and seduced

Blushed and refused

Let them all loose 

And Noone comes for me

What hasn't been tried?

Do you have some advice?

It hurts me inside

That Noone comes for me

If there's something to change

Some lesson,  some page

Some turn of some phrase

Would someone come for me?

Can't help but to wait

No matter how late

Maybe today

Someone will come for me. 

eviction and tarot

I'm a fucking wreck.  

I didn't mean for this to get this far.  

It's all my fault.  I don't know where I'm gonna go to bed Monday night.

I don't want to keep fighting for a house we don't take care of and we can't afford.

I have to start packing soon.

At least I read good for the people.

I'm a wreck.  I'm so sorry.