fuck being stuck

I've been overwhelmed and stuck for so many years.  

I know I have.

I've struggled, to no avail.

Time has been squandered, resources unmanaged, choices unchecked, plans abandoned.

It's enough now.  Enough.

I am talented, strong, determined, capable, adaptable, able to do whatever I'd like.

I pray I figure out what that is again.

I need to connect with a goal.  I need a project that isn't a horrible pressing "have-to".  I need something I care about.

Fuck.

I've forgotten myself.